I Gave in to Temptation

TMI Warning - Just so you know.......

Yesterday afternoon I had some brown d/c. I was freaking out because I wasn't prepared for it nor have any idea what it was. Google MD told me that it was more than likely implant.ation d/c. Of course, I only believed that after 25 sites told me the same thing. D was so excited! He was jumping around and (for those of you that know him) was doing his one-handed-clap thing!

So this morning, I gave in and POAS. ONLY because it said that a positive HPT can be received after a successful implant.ation. I am not sure at this time if it was successful or not as the HPT was B-FREAKING-N. I cried on the toilet after that. I tried REALLY hard to imagine even the faintest of 2nd lines there and I just couldn't do it. I threw it away and got in the shower. Of course, after the shower I dug it back out of the trash to see if maybe I was still too sleepy to have seen it the first time or maybe it took more than the recommended 3 minutes to appear....but nothing.

D told me to stop taking them because I am only making myself upset every time its BFN. But good news maybe is that apparently the hc.g levels could still be too low for an HPT to pick up and I still could be pg. A blood pg test (beta) is most accurate in these situations.

Today I will don my suit of armor including shield and sword to fight off all further urges to POAS this weekend! (What a LONG weekend this will be.) And wait for the beta on Tuesday....

Grateful for:

• Zoe, our 350z, who helped me get to work really fast this morning. AKA I took out my BFN frustrations on my gas pedal.
• The garden - we have baby tomatoes, bell peppers, strawberries and onions.
• Spring time - the weather is so perfect!